I know what’s best for me and what’s right for me. I just can’t do it. I tell myself to not do something and to not go back, but I always end up giving in. I’m not going to blame anyone else for my emotions, I know it’s my fault…because all those times that I could’ve left, I didn’t. I turned right back around and knew exactly what I would have to deal with all over again. It’s the same cycle every time. Some shit happens, I tell myself to never go back, my human conscience kicks in and literally forces me to go back. I hate it. I hate how I can’t control myself. It’s like this thing is controlling me, making me go back every time. I need to find a way to get rid of the “thing” so I can have some self-control.